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A Tribute to the Little Angels

on December 20, 2014

Thank-you to all of you for your beautiful words and responses.  I have not been replying but believe me, we have been reading and it has blessed us so much.

So many of you have written of similar losses.  And I felt compelled to write a tribute to all the little angels waiting for us.

Dear little ones,

Your beginnings were weak, barely there,

Made in the darkest recesses of the earth.

So fragile and tiny,

Unseen and unformed substances,

We didn’t even know you were there at the beginning.

You were so weak and yet your strength was immeasurable.

You were strong enough to make a test in the outside world show positive.

You were strong enough to make your mommies sore and tired and sick.

You were strong enough to bring abundant joy and devastating sorrow.

You were strong!

And though unseen by us, you were indeed seen.

The eye of your Maker was watching closely,

Sustaining,

Constructing,

And keeping.

Why then did you go?

We had you covered, between us and God.

We would have given you a beautiful home and loved you and cared for you.

Why did you go?

We could blame God; we could blame ourselves; we could blame the doctors; we could blame til we were blue in the face and still we would have the wrong answer.

It is a question whose answer is worship.

Worship.

You are now with the One who knows all things,

Who can do all things,

Who IS all things.

As your mommies, we beg you to worship Him in whose presence you have come to rest.

Worship Him for us.

Tell Him we still love Him with all our beings.

Tell Him that we still trust Him though He dealt bitterly with us.

Tell Him that He is still our Hero, because He made the miracle of you.

And when we see you little ones,

All shall be well.

 

 

 

 


11 responses to “A Tribute to the Little Angels

  1. Vivian Mast says:

    This is beautiful Jean! My heart aches with you. We say joy is touched with pain, but why such intense pain. And yet you are right the answer is worship. May you sense the same arms around you that are holding your little child.

  2. Misty N. says:

    This brings a lump to my throat and tears to the eyes. So beautifully written.

  3. Brenda Troyer says:

    Thank you. I remember Kaden Lee Troyer 1/19/06. Did you name your wee one? Praying for heart healing for you and your hubby.

  4. Joanna Yoder says:

    No words, just tears.
    Waiting to meet two angels in Glory.

  5. This is by far the most precious and beautiful thing I have read since we lost our own little one in September. Thank you so much for writing and for sharing it with us. May you continue to find comfort and peace in the answer of worship!

  6. Ida Miller says:

    You make known to me the path of life;
    in your presence there is fullness of joy;
    at your right hand are pleasures forevermore. Psalm 16:11 ESV

  7. Rosie Schrock says:

    oh hugs to you Jean!!!!!!! So many emotions to work thru. May you feel God’s love and peace surrounding you.

  8. Becca says:

    You have me in tears that salve my soul. Ryan and I were surprised by a tiny angel recently, too. How to grieve a life you didn’t anticipate and lost two weeks after being aware of… It’s intangible and weird and hard, but ever present. Thank you for these beautiful, healing words.

  9. […] A beautiful, poetic letter written by Jean Nisly: A Tribute to the Little Angels […]

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