Well folks!
Tomorrow is treatment #12.
My last one!
I do not feel a “bouncing off the walls” kind of excitement. It’s more of a quiet hope. A deep gratitude. A grace that cannot be spoken. An unworthiness that I should be healed. A thankfulness to the God of the Universe for sparing my life.
Some days I seriously questioned whether I’d ever make it to see this day. AND I figured that if I did, I’d be so weak physically it wouldn’t really matter anyways. Well, it does matter and I’m not feeling weak.
Yes, it’s true that my body is definitely wearing down towards the end, but God has also given me “bounce back” in-between the rounds. I’m feeling quite good!
Though I hit a low over the weekend on this last round, God seems to have answered my prayer for a miracle and I was already on the mend by last Monday. I am grateful. To enter a round with renewed energy is worth a whole heap! Specifically, to enter my last round feeling good is something I did not even have the faith to hope for. Thank-you Jesus!
Nothing is certain…of this I am certain. Only He is certain. What am I saying? Only that I find myself still a mortal, susceptible to all the brokenness of this world. Cancer can return. This would most certainly paralyze me were it not that I know Him in whose hands I rest.
Please pray for us this last round!