Thank-you to all of you for your beautiful words and responses. I have not been replying but believe me, we have been reading and it has blessed us so much.
So many of you have written of similar losses. And I felt compelled to write a tribute to all the little angels waiting for us.
Dear little ones,
Your beginnings were weak, barely there,
Made in the darkest recesses of the earth.
So fragile and tiny,
Unseen and unformed substances,
We didn’t even know you were there at the beginning.
You were so weak and yet your strength was immeasurable.
You were strong enough to make a test in the outside world show positive.
You were strong enough to make your mommies sore and tired and sick.
You were strong enough to bring abundant joy and devastating sorrow.
You were strong!
And though unseen by us, you were indeed seen.
The eye of your Maker was watching closely,
Sustaining,
Constructing,
And keeping.
Why then did you go?
We had you covered, between us and God.
We would have given you a beautiful home and loved you and cared for you.
Why did you go?
We could blame God; we could blame ourselves; we could blame the doctors; we could blame til we were blue in the face and still we would have the wrong answer.
It is a question whose answer is worship.
Worship.
You are now with the One who knows all things,
Who can do all things,
Who IS all things.
As your mommies, we beg you to worship Him in whose presence you have come to rest.
Worship Him for us.
Tell Him we still love Him with all our beings.
Tell Him that we still trust Him though He dealt bitterly with us.
Tell Him that He is still our Hero, because He made the miracle of you.
And when we see you little ones,
All shall be well.